Reach that place in your heart where you are scared to go to. Close your eyes and think about your life, think about how you are truly feeling. You would get the answers your conscious mind already knows. You are not digging deep enough. You reach a corner in your mind a thought, you have repressed and you dont want to go to. Thats the thought you need to dig, thats the closed door you need to knock.
You need that door to open for you to truly know whats going on inside you. No one else can tell you best but yourself. I am not preaching meditation, I am just asking you to look closely at yourself and not be scared of what might come out of that silence.
That secret that you are keeping from yourself wont let you be happy, you would try to find it in all your external world and in your conscious mind, persuade yourself with distractions that you couldn’t lead a much fuller life.
There are no hidden demons, your mind and heart knows exactly how you can be happy – you just need to knock on the right door. Open the door and start healing.